Life hasnt been too good for me recently, grandpa has just passed away, there was the pain yet a relief, pain of losing a amiable and respectable grandpa who lived with me for a whole 20 yrs of my life was hard to bare. I've cried buckets every night, the torment of losing a closed one is so painful. Recently, after the death of my grandpa, news broke that my grandma was inflicted with cancer, this took a toll on my family, mummy and daddy was so distraught, the thought of the possibility of losing grandma surfaced, led me to tear again. What made it all worse was i had to make the decision of going abroad to study at this ungodly time. When my dad's financial burden is at its peak. I know its tough on him and mum, but they never did deprive me from going.. and that made me really guilty. Guilty for not persisting to stay on in NUS, guilty for giving up so easily, guilty of not spending enough time and concern for the family, yet they're willing to give it all up for me, my education;my future. Mum and dad know that going abroad to study has always been my dream, thanks mummy and daddy! I love you both
The boyfriend has always been so encouraging by my side, to the extend that i've taken him for granted sooo many times. That i must admit. My behaviour towards him was one of an immature gf. Those nasty temper and constant snaps at him, I'm sorry baby I dont mean to, just that i'm going thru a rough patch at this time I still love you..
Never written such an emo post before, so unlike me. I dont reveal much about my very inner personal life to public before. But I just feel like sharing this time.. cos i'm lost and i want to find a route out of this dark and gloomy tunnel, i want a ray of sunshine, i want happiness!
xoxo
--gracefully left off--
2:08 AM
Her Highness
26/5/1986
Trying to seek an adventurous & fulfilling life
True blue fashionista
Fetish for anything vintage or stylish
Loves to eat but scared to see herself on the weighing machine
Whiny girl who loves girly talks and chic flicks
Loves her boy:)
